Last Saturday, as I walked into the Royal Cup Coffee Shop, I was greeted by Rajeev. He said that a package had arrived for me, I asked him from whom, he said he didn’t know. I couldn’t figure out why a package would come to our Seva Cafe location and not to our PO BOX Address but I was too distracted to try to piece the logic together.Â
I was setting up for our regular Seva Cafe location when Rajeev finally handed the package over to me. It had already been opened. I looked on the Priority Mail package and noticed that instead of putting their name and address, the sender had only left the word: “Smile!”. I immediately recognized that this was something special in my hands and consequently a desire to share this gift with others arose. I took the package over to the where five new volunteers were sitting and I showed them the package. Ever since they arrived the new volunteers were asking me questions of what the Seva Cafe was. Here, I thought, was an opportunity to show them in action. Before I opened the package, I told them that these are the kinds of things that happen here.
We opened the Priority Mail package and inside we discovered a book, a note, and a self-addressed envelope. I first proceeded to read the note out loud:
Sukh bhai,
I read this book from start to finish in one sitting. I have never done this before. I hope this book finds you well and has the same profound effect on you that it had on me. I know this breaks the rules, but I would like you to read my secret before mailing it. Thank you for helping me,
SMILE!
I contemplated the latter part of the letter for a moment. Not quite understanding what rules were being broken and what this person’s secret was, I proceeded to look at the book for some clues. The book was entitled: “The Secret Lives of Men and Women“. It was a compilation of selected secrets submitted to www.postsecret.com. Individuals anywhere could send in their secrets by depicting them on a postcard. It allows them to share their common humanity with others, and relieves them of a burden that they may have been carrying for a long time. I opened the book to a random page and the ‘realness’ of the human experience hit me immediately. A postcard with a woman confessing that she is more afraid of aging than of dying, and another photograph of a priest with “Some Days, it feels more like a noose!!” written on his clerical collar.
Then it hit me. The self-addressed envelope contained the secret of this anonymous sender, and they actually wanted me to read their secret before it made its way to postsecret.com. I looked inside the envelope unsure of what secrets were awaiting me. I pulled out, with little surprise, a Smile Card. One the smile card was hand written the anonymous senders secret: “I can’t give gifts or do community service without expecting something in return.” … and at the bottom in big bold letters: “Not Anymore!“Â
In that moment, we all wondered if we do service without expectation. Maybe that was a secret that all of us were harboring and was unleashed through the courage of this anonymous sender. I also thought about all the secrets that I keep locked up in myself. How the things that actually make me human are the things that I try so hard to hide from others. I keep my own pain and anger locked away so that others won’t think poorly of me. That’s my secret.
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